Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Life training

I'm not really sure why I'm on here now. I don't really have anything profound to write. All kinds of thoughts are running through my head. Thoughts like: I wish I were at home reading my book. It's a real page-turner! I love watching it rain out the window. I daydream about the kitten I'll have some day. I also daydream about the baby. That's right, I said "baby." about 8 months to go before I meet one I've spent my whole life in training to properly influence and love. I've always known that I was meant to be a wife and mother. I got the "wife" part down pretty good starting just a little over one year ago, now I have just a little more time before I start the whole "mother" thing. I'm excited and scared at the same time. This is going to mean that I can't just get in the truck and go whenever I want to. It's going to mean that I'm no longer first. This is going to be the end of me and the beginning. Others will no longer see me, but they'll see the baby. Friends I haven't spoken to in (maybe) years will suddenly want to re-connect...especially those who have avoided me. A baby means that entertainment choices change. Am I cut out for it? I hope so. A baby doesn't go away...I hope. It's going to be harder to go to amusement parks for a while. It's going to be more difficult to sleep at night. But, a baby is easy to love - especially when you look forward to it for a lifetime. I think I'm ready...we'll see.