Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Newness

Lots of new stuff....but at the same time, not new at all. I'm still me, I'm just in a new city with a new family and a new schedule. I get out of bed early in the morning (or not) sit around writing letters or watching TV unitl one of the kids comes home from Kindergarten and then hang out with him and have some kind of lunch and wait for his mom and brothers come home. Then we all just sit around and wait for dinner and then go to bed.

Not very eventful, but I'm always tired. The twins wake up in the middle of the night and scream for what seems like hours. I'm not used to children at all, so that's been the most difficult for me.

My music career debut was Sunday night. It was more or less spontaneous. We three got some positive comments, so I'm encouraged. We record in Michigan this weekend and then I go home for a couple weeks for the wedding and stuff. My brother won't live here for much longer....I'm sad, but I know he needs to go. God says "go" and ya gotta go.

I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss having a schedule. I miss knowing where I'll be going and what I'll be doing and when it'll happen. I miss alone time. I miss good sleep. I miss adult conversation. I miss not having a broken heart......he's with someone else. I miss the country. I miss living where people don't have a southern accent and have most of their teeth. I miss the feeling that God keeps me "in the loop." I miss knowing people in my area. I miss having friends close by.....I miss life.

I know I'm supposed to be here. I may not like it, but I'll stay until God says move on. I'm not positive about how He'll tell me, but I trust he'll make it obvious. I trust Him.

1 comment:

roy said...

Im sorry Amanda. I was really hoping things would work out for you and him and that youd be happy.