Monday, April 03, 2006

My soul

"Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side; Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain; Leave to thy God to order and provide; In every change He faithful will remain. Be still my soul: thy best, thy Heavenly Friend Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

"Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake To guide the future as He has the past. Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake; All now mysterious shall be bright as last. Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

"Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on When we shall be forever with the Lord, When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone, Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored. Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past, All safe and blessed we shall meet at last."


I've tried to sum up all the changes in my life in one short sentence, but it's just not possible. Instead, I am content to share with you all the bottom line. My soul has been troubled for many different reasons still not completely known to me. Not a bad kind of trouble...just a time of reflection and (I think) healing. I know what I want the future to hold and be, but I decided long ago that I will be happy with whatever God sees fit to provide. I may at first struggle with accepting the sorrows, I know it will soon pass and I'll be better for having gone through it...whatever it is. I could go on any number of tangents, but it just wouldn't feel right. I love so many people! And the things they do are so delightful to me that I often burst into private, joyful laughter just watching them. I'm out of inspiration now, but perhaps I'll write again soon.

2 comments:

Melanie said...

Beautiful song, Amanda. Amazing isn't it, how some thing express exactly what it is that we need. :-D I'm praying for you. Should you need to talk...you know where to find me.
Love you!

Nata said...

ah-ha! i found your blog!

i can't imagine the tough stuff your family has gone through but it's so encouraging to hear that you aren't giving up on God.